Friday, June 24, 2011
Woke up very upset. Lastnight My mother decided to get into with me over something that did not include her thought or opinion. Honestly, I'm so ready to get out this house, graduate and move. I can't take it any longer.... All she likes to do is argue and I don't have the energy for that. I really don't. I wish she would just calm down and chill but that would be hard for her to do because she's stubborn, loud, rude, and she ONLY thinks about herself. I'm over it. Like I told her lastnight...I don't care anymore so whatever she has to say I'm going to SILENTLY respond. I no longer have a voice in this house....so It is what it is.
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Monday, June 20, 2011
Sunday, June 19, 2011
I haven't talked to anyone lately, and this dude decided to actually listen to me rant on about how I messed up and I'm stupid....Lmbo, He gave me the best insight. I love this younging.... I can talk to him about anything. BF problems especially. He's shown me a lot this past year. I give him advice and he does the same.
Guess I should tell you about the boy who captured my heart huh? Well, yeah...that's him. I believe I'm the luckiest girl in the world....because he loves me unconditionally and he's always going out of his way to make sure I'm good. It all started when I was 15, he was 14. He got my attention.....and I fell for him secretly. Couldn't let him know because I was too caught up. Then he managed to get ALL of me.....It took months before we actually told everyone we were a couple, Everyone was like WTF? o.O right. Regardless...that didn't stop us. I love him but I swear it took me a year and a half to realize that I was IN love with him. Jordan Grizzle, Yeah he's that famous boy on the internet. That boy who performed on wild out wednesday on 106 n Park, the boy who has millions of girls screaming TEAMGRIZZY! None of that matters because I'll love him with or without all the attention. We've been through hell and high water but if there is any true meaning to love....I know we can get through all this shit. I can't afford more problems so I stay away from these niggas who can land me in a pile of trouble now. I just want him to understand the truth...I want him to realize that even this shit we going through now can't stop us. I won't let it. I have a problem with expressing my feelings.....I can NEVER tell a person EXACTLY how I feel, I can never tell HIM. Anybody can say I'm too young for this shit but fuck them and their thoughts. FUCK how they feel. I'm in love with this boy and it's real. I love myself for loving him. Some girls love some fucked up assholes....but Jordan is different. I believe he's different. && His mistakes don't make him. Anyways....That sums it all up. I'm done.....
This is my escape, I come here to write what I feel and what's on my mind. Hurt, Love, Pain, Pleasure, Life, School, and beyond. My name is Donesha Akelea Rose-Smith. I'm currently 17 years old and I love to Blog. It's a relieve in a way. I do and say what I want and Its my opinions, People may not agree with me but that's why they have their own freedom and right to create their own blog. I experience A LOT on a daily basis and writing it down in a diary would be too much work for me being that I'm ALWAYS busy on the internet. so, that's why I came here. To release thoughts and feelings no one really knows. I'm sharing A LOT but not too much. Just what the internet needs to know.